Been a long time coming, I have wanted to write so much here. It's not like the words weren't forthcoming, I think there was just so much that I wanted to say, so much that I wanted to write and the words were so much I could literally feel them choking me.
I bought a piece of land, 💃💃💃 it's something I have always wanted to do. Real Estate is something that really fascinates me. Some day I hope that I can become a Real Estate mogul, getting this place is a way of keeping my hope alive.
It's a 50/100 plot of land in a reasonable good area. I actually do not feel as excited as I ought to because I went through so much to get it.
The five days before I got it took so much from me. I had to give my blood, my sweat but not my tears. I did not cry when *** told me at first that he was proud of me and that he was going to support me but soon had a change of mind and told me that because I was a woman I had no business acquiring land.
I did not cry when after conducting an interview with one of the richest men in the state right now he told me he had no money.
I did not cry when I was blindsided by someone I thought was my friend, someone I thought would support me the same way I had given my support in their time of need.
I did not cry when I called Ken to ask for the N30k I loaned him and he insulted my parents. He insulted my Dad who has been so good to him, my Dad who treated him like a son.
I wanted to cry, the tears came but I willed them away. I wore my big girl pants and pushed my self harder.
I was short of N25k and it seemed like I was going to lose the place but my Dad bailed me out. I told him it is a loan and I intend to pay back.
I am so thankful for my father, I am so thankful for the gift of my parents because no matter how many dirty lemons life hauls at me, I have amazing parents that will clean my bruised knee.
*** says he loves me, I know that is a lie. I can see his motives clearly. I hope that someday I will meet someone who will love me for my lofty dreams.
I hope that someday I will meet someone that I can be my best self with, no inhibitions loving each other like its what we were born to do.
Most days my head is full, I feel like a aged 10 times over in my mind.
I need money, now I am dead broke and it is a feeling I haven't had in over two years.
I have to keep moving, I have to make money, I have to become rich and successful I owe myself and my children that much.
