I'm a self saboteur, I destroy every chance I get to be happy. I destroy friendships before they bloom into something beautiful because I think that I do not deserve to be in those peoples lives, and that if I was then they did be better off without me. I did rather be the wall flower than let the spot light be on me even when I am supposed to take due credit because I think that someone else deserves than spot better than I do. I have hurt a lot of guys in the past because I wanted to be the one who asked for the break up just because I could. I evade anything different because the norm is convenient. I hurt myself and time again because I feel that if I sabotaged myself long and hard enough I would have payed for the mistakes I made in the past and the people I hurt while making those mistakes.
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