January 14th 2014

Dear Diary,
       
        Been a long time since I kept an actual journal, over a year to be exact. I never got around to getting one until Glory gave me this as a gift. Dear Glory bless her heart she's such a nice a friend it's too bad that i'm not appreciative of her.

       So much has happened in the last year, I have so much to be thankful for. A year ago I would never have believed my life would be the way it is now. God has really been merciful its not like I have everything I want but for what I have I am thankful.

        By now I ought to be a graduate, I really wanted to finish school before I clocked 21 but I guess life had other plans. Some things have changed and some things have not. I guess I have become more mature, some people would say good looking,some will say more of a shrew and some will say just different.

       Change is constant I believe I will keep changing this year for instance I have decided to start wearing trousers. My parents would have a conniption if they heard that but it's my life, it's my choice, it's what I've always wanted to do. I'm not harming anybody by doing it i'm just trying to make myself happy.

       I'm 21 and all my life I've tried to please my parents, I've put their wishes and desires above mine time and time again. This year, I have decided to please myself, I want to experience life on the other side. I have no intention of having of having sex until i'm married so that is out of the question. But I think I want to alcohol just for the experience i'm thinking of trying out red and exotic cocktails, no cheap stuff for me :))

      Like I said some things have changed and some things haven't like my fascination with C* or do I call it an obsession. I decided to excommunicate myself from him in October 2012 believe me it's one of the hardest things I've had to do I just had to.

      This year, I want to get into a serious relationship I want to date someone who would make me believe everything I ever felt for * was a fluke.

       I just want to forget him, that's why I cant wait to serve I feel like i'm going to meet someone who would change my life forever.
                .......................................I just cant wait to really fall in love.