January 20th 2014

Dear Diary,

         Today was a typical ol'Monday, I was so stressed up today. And whats more my lecturer refused to let me give my point  today in class even though it was a salient one. I mean people kept giving really absurd contributions in class and I thought that mine was a really good.
 
         When he eventually called on me, I was so angry  my voice was shaky as though I wanted to cry or something and as if that wasn't already a bummer I said 19/11 instead of 9/11. yikes!!!!

          Well i'm thinking i'm thinking of a way of getting back at him and having my pound of flesh (it would make a good sandwich) any ideas?

          Of late all that goes on in my head are unhealthy thoughts of marriage I think its because almost all the girls I know are getting married. Every Saturday some girl I know is getting married. It makes me feel old and some type of way I can't even put a finger to the way I feel.

         All I know is that I cant wait to leave this environment with all the drama especially marriage drama ewww! i'm like totally grossed out, angry and disapionted in my self for even thinking about that right now.

                                 Nyte diary, :))   ;))  XOXO

PS: Don't you just love that library, if only it looked more cushiony I did get one and stay there forever me and all my books. Total bliss I tell you, it would be my very own Utopia. Who needs marital bliss when you can get book bliss.

17th January 2014

Everybody has their own story to tell. Your life is like a book that
you don't ever get to put down. So make it interesting. ~Brian &
Johnathan, www.thegaybeards.com

Dear Diary,
   There are some days that we just wish would end already. We wonder if any day could ever get better again. That's the way I felt yesterday, Today however I feel so much better. The laptop in question isn't showing any screen malfunctions. I hope it stays that way.
      
           Today was pretty stressful and hectic but I loved it. I guess its really beginning to register that I'm back in school. I've got a ton of assignments plus project work and I've also got so much reading to do. I guess I still lack the drive I was having before the strike, I hope I get my serious student groove back.
                                               Nyte Diary XOXO

19th January 2014

The life of every man is a diary in which he means to write one
story, and writes another. ~James Matthew Barrie

         Dear Diary,
                  Happy new week. Today I got thinking and I realised that I have so much to be thankful for. I am thankful for good health, the food I eat, the water I drink, the air in my lungs, for my family, For my life. I am thankful that God loves me.

                 I take so many things for granted, many times I grumble about not having it all but I just realised that I need to be grateful and appreciative of God alot more than I usually do. I'm alive because God hasn't finished his work in my life. I know God has great plans for me.

                I'm going to learn how not to grumble or stay angry with God for the things that are not working for me the way I want them to. I'm going to have a thankful disposition from now on. I'm going to learn how to praise God.
                                                         Nyte Diary XOXO

January 16th 2014

Everybody has their own story to tell. Your life is like a book that
you don't ever get to put down. So make it interesting. ~Brian &
Johnathan, www.thegaybeards.com

Dear Diary,
         I'm in such a dilemma and whats more I feel so guilty. Earlier today I think I mistakenly let my roommates laptop slip to the ground when I was trying to get stuff out of the ward rope. I thought I held it down well but maybe i didn't do it well or I wasn't fast enough.

        Now the laptop in question has a little screen malfunction and what if it gets worse what do I do? do I tell her that I am responsible for the mishap or do I just keep mum? I am hoping really hoping that this problem doesn't get any worse because  I did be in a major fix.

         I can put a name to the way I feel today but I know it starts with the word sad :((

                                               Night diary thanks for being such a good listener.

January 14th 2014

Dear Diary,
       
        Been a long time since I kept an actual journal, over a year to be exact. I never got around to getting one until Glory gave me this as a gift. Dear Glory bless her heart she's such a nice a friend it's too bad that i'm not appreciative of her.

       So much has happened in the last year, I have so much to be thankful for. A year ago I would never have believed my life would be the way it is now. God has really been merciful its not like I have everything I want but for what I have I am thankful.

        By now I ought to be a graduate, I really wanted to finish school before I clocked 21 but I guess life had other plans. Some things have changed and some things have not. I guess I have become more mature, some people would say good looking,some will say more of a shrew and some will say just different.

       Change is constant I believe I will keep changing this year for instance I have decided to start wearing trousers. My parents would have a conniption if they heard that but it's my life, it's my choice, it's what I've always wanted to do. I'm not harming anybody by doing it i'm just trying to make myself happy.

       I'm 21 and all my life I've tried to please my parents, I've put their wishes and desires above mine time and time again. This year, I have decided to please myself, I want to experience life on the other side. I have no intention of having of having sex until i'm married so that is out of the question. But I think I want to alcohol just for the experience i'm thinking of trying out red and exotic cocktails, no cheap stuff for me :))

      Like I said some things have changed and some things haven't like my fascination with C* or do I call it an obsession. I decided to excommunicate myself from him in October 2012 believe me it's one of the hardest things I've had to do I just had to.

      This year, I want to get into a serious relationship I want to date someone who would make me believe everything I ever felt for * was a fluke.

       I just want to forget him, that's why I cant wait to serve I feel like i'm going to meet someone who would change my life forever.
                .......................................I just cant wait to really fall in love.

THE CONNOISSEUR OF SILENCE

Nobody sings anymore
I remember when we where kids we used to sing alot
we used to play in the sand and build sand castles
we used to hold hands, play in the moon light and tell stories
remember who is the garden? that game we played back then
remember our definition of fun back then?
when life was simple and the only thing that looked like the complicated was
when you didn't know the answer to 11×12
Remember when you used to sing the National Anthem chest strutting out, your
voice bellowing with holy emotion because you truly truly believed that the
labour of our heroes past shall never be in vain.
Its gone, yes that Nigeria its gone!
If you tried to unlock those memories so you could recreate them,
you would fine nothing else but grey silence.
yes, silence.